Random things… seriously…

EXACTLY what’s going on in my head… it’s been a while since the last time i actually felt the heat in my relationship, well then it went down the pooper and im left alone.. which is alright, living with it… but then i started to think, do i need to feel the romance? and when i do feel it, i don’t ever want to lose it, it’s like i want to feel that without having to ever have the thought that it will end and vanish into thin air. you know? it’s nice to be in a relationship and know that it couldn’t end in a break-up…

Fellow reader, give me a piece of your thoughts, what do you think of romance? I would love to feel it again you know, i mean wouldn’t it be nice to just look at someone and feel that heat and flowery feeling all over again.. do people needs these feelings nowadays? does it mean that it’s just my own selfish desire to enjoy a relationship, commitment or no commitment it doesn’t matter, just that flowery feeling, seriously, i kinda think I’m devoid of this feeling nowadays, i’m interested but i don’t feel like it, strange? well whatever. i just want to know you fellow readers opinions.

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Enough about my own random emotion, yesterday my very very very very very best friend had a small gathering, she is going to America this Friday, and yesterday was probably the saddest day for this month, even worse when i broke up with my girlfriend 2 weeks ago. I called her and she was pouring down like crazy and she was driving, so i told her to stop and just let it all out, and i asked her what happened.. then she did, she told me how happy she is to ever know us guys, and how we are her blessings, honestly it touches my feeling, and unconsciously i started to feel really sad… and she said how much she loves us, then it just strikes that i was not there for her.. then i started to feel really really stupid… i know i couldn’t do anything about it, but this is my bestest girl friend EVER, i know her for 10 years, and i wasn’t there for her farewell… it sucks, it made me really sad, then she said that she was glad i wasn’t there.. that if i were there, it would only make her sadder, and how it would be more painful for her to leave, because then she has to say goodbye to a friend she loved the most. *BOOM*, then it just clicked, and then i started to feel even worse.. I did my best to listen to her, and not let my intense vulnerability be of any issues when i was talking to her over the phone, ofcourse after the phone call ended, i did let a few tear drops roll off, i couldn’t possibly do anything about it though, i mean it was my very best friend.. and i wasn’t there to see her off , im happy for her…

And Le, honey, if you’re reading this, know that i would be there for you, i would never ever forget you, we went through heaps of craps, funny, sad, frustraing, all kinds of em.. and to be honest, i really don’t want to let it go, so i’m gonna say that i’m extremely sorry to ever hurt you in anyway, and i am so glad that i know you, i hope you have a great life in america, and i hope that you will be at your best in any kinds of situations you might get yourself into, cause let’s face it, you are one badass girl! , love you so much.. take good care babe..

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Now that’s over, i have nothing else to say, except i just watched ocean thirteen, and i have to say… they’re geniuses.. haha.. oh and if you want to watch it, and can’t be bothered to buy the dvd, download it!, here’s the link.

Download:
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http://rapidshare.com/files/125958273/oceansthirteen.part2.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/126023590/oceansthirteen.part3.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/126023715/oceansthirteen.part4.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/126023731/oceansthirteen.part5.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/126023750/oceansthirteen.part6.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/126023669/oceansthirteen.part7.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/126020992/oceansthirteen.part8.rar

and the

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happy downloading people!

Aqua Timez!!!!!!!!

Aqua Timez, WAWAWA, i love them, i don’t know why, heck i can’t understand a word theyre saying, but when i listen to them, it cheered me up, a friend of mine told me that when she listens to their songs, it cheered her up, well now i understood what she meant, i mean i like them before but only just for an easy listening, and since yesterday i’ve only been listening to their songs, and seriously people.. It’s flingin flangin NICE! ahahah.. Anyone who wants to know what im talking about, below is the download link of their songs, and forgive me that lately i only write about my broken relationship, well that’s over now and i am seriously moving on …

Kaze Wo Atsumete

Track List:
01. 1mm
02. Hoshi no Mienai Yoru
03. No Rain, No Rainbow
04. 決意の朝に
05 Hachimitsu, Dady…Dady..
06. Sen no Yoru Koete
07. Green Bird
08. Arumi
09. Master Mind
10. White Hole
11. Present
12. Perfect World
13. Itsumo Issho
14. Shiroi Mori

I advised fellow reader to listen to track number 4, it was used in the movie for “Bleach”, and trust me, you’ll love this song.

http://rapidshare.com/files/47918555/kazewoatsumete.rar

Their newest album is Niji (rainbow), it only contains 6 tracks, but i also advised fellow listeners to listen to this album, it’s really nice

Niji

http://www.shareonall.com/Aqua_Timez_-_Kurenab4ND13t_Y4kuZai_joar_rar.htm

Password: b4ND13t_Y4kuZa
Track List :
1. 虹
2. 優しい記憶 ~evalastingII~
3. Honto Wa Nee
4. No Live,No Life
5. 虹-Instrumental-

Have fun downloading, Niji is an amazing song!

Accepting a person? Why is it hard for some people?

For some reasons it is quite the problem in a relationship, by a relationship i meant friendship or even more than that… Let’s face the facts, when a new person is introduced to you, you will feel like being a good version of yourself to give a greater impression, now that’s a bad thing to do to me, cause it wont ever suceed, i read people’s negativity and their personalit easily, but then to other people, it’s like a reflex, why?

Well, people these days, most of them lack love, most of them lack friends and by doing so they think that they can get what they want, i think it’s wrong. I think when you want to look for a friend that understands you, you really should be yourself, that way you’ll know that these people are the one that can accept you for who you are, not for the good part of you.

Even in a relationship, this is a huge problem, most guys/girls, wouldn’t want to continue a relationship where the partner doesn’t change, but hasn’t it strikes their mind, that maybe they’re gf/bf accept them for who they are, and yet they can’t accept some of the negativity that the other have, this a problem and most relationship breaks off because of this exact problem, and i think when you are faced with this dillema, THEN you should find someone that accept you for who you are, Even if you act ganjen, even if you are ignorant, even if you go to club and get high, if they don’t like it, then they should do their best to bring the other person to the right path, not by leaving them, because then that’s not love, but just a crush and the physical attraction that they are interested to.

I think it is best to know someone to an extent that you can accept them, THEN you go out with them.. well then again, i might be wrong.

Commitment Phobia, what the heck?

Seriously, what the hell is wrong with people these days, what’s wrong with commitments? I mean, is it something really hard to achieve? is it a sin to be committed to each other? Is it something that people shouldn’t do when they’re 18?! WHAT IS IT?!

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Let me tell you my own piece of mind, there’s absolutely nothing wrong in being committed with your partner, loh i mean seriously, does age really matters? i mean, sure girls/guys wants to have fun, but when they’re with each other, u don’t fool around… Someone told me, that she was young and she wanted to have fun and goof around.. Now in a context, let me ask you people, does the term “goof around” equals to “cheating”?, In my dictionary, THAT IS NOT THE CASE, by goofing around, is that you flirt with people, you do things that tells them that well, you wanted to have fun, but not by the means of cheating with other, that’s wrong.

So the question would be, how do i keep my partner from being afraid of commitment, well i guess there are no other ways than one, you really have to sho them that you are everything for them, that you could be the best, nothing but the best.
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Another question, what if some idiotic people relates commitment to marriage? Well for goodness sake, being committed doesn’t mean marriage, being committed just meant that you believe and trust each other, and not do stupid things that hurts each other, Marriage is different, marriage is actually having to really stay in that one relationship for the rest of your life

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But then, what’s the limitation of commitment in a relationship? EASY, when you find someone better, and he/she could make u happier, then that’s a good enough reason for you to ditch them and tell them that you’ve found someone better, and in the process, u give them the time to prove you wrong, kalo ga bisa, ya udah. Again, i have to stress the point that, what i’ve just said, is NOT cheating! It’s called giving chances and actually stay committed to each other, and once it failed, THEN you’ll run and look for a better one. kok susah?

and one more thing people, keep this in mind! You love someone.. sure.. but then you change as time goes by, well obviously, we’re all still young, (if you consider being 20+ is young then you’ll dig what im saying), you don’t give up, you accept that no matter how hard it is. You don’t look for reasons to stop loving each other just because they’re not the same person you went on board with… You don’t just stop accepting who they are, you learn to accept them, you learn to forgive their mistakes in the process of changing, and you accept the fact that you are with each other.. I mean, how hard is that?

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Well i just think it’s ridiculous for someone to be so idiotic, to not understand the word Commitment itself, once you’re in a long term relationship, it doesn’t meant that it shouldn’t end, but if it meant to not work, then at least break it off with a sensible thing to do. Don’t look for reasons and judge others when you can’t look within yourself and notice how many black spots of lies exists in the fragment of your thoughts.. And once you do that, THEN lecture me.

It’s over, but my show must go on.

That’s a line i use to say to my fellow bandmate, something bad happened, we screwed up, but the show must go on. And i didn’t think i would say it to myself. On the 18th of July, i finally broke up with ELisabeth Louisa. WHy? well let me tell u.

Have u ever been so dissapointed at the fact that you’ve sacrificed everything you have for one girl, and in the end, she did the one thing that you never saw coming. What she did for me was terrible… she kissed with another guy… people can say that it’s the guys fault, but let’s see it this way, as a man, i know when girls gives signs to a guy if she wants it to, so concsiously/unconsciously she let out this signal of “i want you to kiss me” so really.. so let me backtrack for a bit so that readers won’t be confused.

She told me that she can’t take the pain of being alone, she told me that she couldn’t last another 4 months without me. But really, let’s see it in other people points of view i am going through the same thing, i have more tempatation than her, but i make it through, im a guy, and a guy can’t keep his dick away from doing another girl if there’s a chance, but i did.. i sacrificed everything for this to work, but she did the opposite, she gave up on the thoughts of being alone. I went through alot, and this is situation is my least expected, but it happened. What can i say? i am dissapointed… but let’s face the truth here, i seldom lie to my own feeling, and i agreed with my heart when it tells me that i still love her no matter what she does to me… and yes, because of that, i forgave her, i forgave her over the fact that she kissed another guy, that she was so close with another guy knowing here im striving to be the best for her. Oh it hurts, it hurts so bad… but people learn to forgive, and i certainly just did… I thought i would’ve been to broken to even stand up for my own conscience, but in reality, i didn’t i kept on fighting, and i know that a few obstacles are needed to be passed if i am to reach the path of maturity and wisdom.

I’ve closed the curtain of my lovely relationship, and I’ve raised my guitar once again.. i am letting it go, and if people really love each other, then it is the only ight thing to do. I have no resentment towards her, i felt anger to the guy, but let’s face it, it’s gonna go away.. not soon, but i know for hell that it will.

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What’s left for me to do now? well, i am going to go back and reflect into my own faults and what discouraged her to continue my relationship. Because obviously, i’ve made my own mistakes and i’ve realized what i’ve done wrong, so now i am going to do my best to be better, because all i know is that i am going to find someone sooner or later, and when i do, i am not going to let my emotion take control over my judgment. I have done all i can and yet i was hurt, i will make sure it’s not going to happen ever again. Enough of the pain, enough of the sadness..

so people, guys especially.. listen up to what i have to say… When you are in a relationship, do not EVER put 100% of yourheart into her, because you know… it will hurt less when she dissapoint you, as guys, all we think about is our sexual need, let’s face that. But some people have a sound mind and subdues the thoughts.. Those people are the real gentleman, guys who can control their emotion and act using their sound mind, commitment exists only for one thing, and that is to train yourself for a better future… Cheating on someone is a bad thing to do, fuck the double standards that most people have.. It is wrong, and it is painful, so make sure, when you really love someone, put your mind into it, but don’t let it control your life. Girls need someone they can count on, someone in times of needs, in time of happiness, in time of sadness, girls hates CLINGY guys, girls hates guys who always think about sex and sex and sex. Don’t let your man brain fool and get the best out of you, because you never know what u got till u lost it. And how do u lose things? because u do stupid things over and over again. One mistake is forgiven, but second and third time? come on… we are people, we don’t want a partner that ruins our life and our comfort. So for those people who still wants to have fun, think about what you’re doing, and realize another fact, that sometimes what you are looking for are right in front of you. And when you ignore it, you have just lost yet another chance. I love my friends so much, and they got me through the toughest time.. yet i still feel something is missing, obviously i am still drunk over her.. haha.. well that’s all i have to say, i don’t want any other poeple to experienced tha pain i’ve felt.. it’s not the most painful, but it certainly hurts.

The last part… Always, ALWAYS be thankful for what you have… I’ve made a deal with the one above, and i asked him to give me signs.. whether i should try to get back with my ex or not. And you know.. it’s weird that he actually did give me the signs… I flipped a coin, if it was head i’ll do my best to get her back, and if it’s tail, i won’t. and guess what people? 3 times flips, and all tails.. just now i flipped another 5 times, ALL TAILS. What does that tell u?:), a phenomena that can;t just happen. , trust your instincts, and trust your heart, but use your mind.

Thank you for everything u gave me, but my show must go on, and the boat has sailed once again.

Hancock, GREAT MOVIE.

Review:

Hancock a story of a superhero, yang ga ada responsibiliti sama sekali, ngelakuin apa sukanya dia, tapi dalam hati tetep mengharapkan orang untuk seneng dan peduli ama dia..

WEll itu sih inti movie ini, but trust me, it may sound a bit cheesy, but sebenarnya.. this movie i think, it’s not just about superhores flying around trying to save the city, karena basically.. his real action in the movie, yang actually helping people sincerely itu cuman 1 scene. thats right ONE scene.. that’s all there is..

Now i think this movie is not just about superheroes being a superhero, it’s a super hero being a human yang lack emotional expression.. trust me, character developmentnya bener2 unexpected, and it’s a great movie over all, there’s no certain moale of he story, but it really showed how Will Smith can act his ass out in this movie.. Really a great movie to be watched by families, friends and all…

Haduh, ke jakarta? malas amat…

Malas oiiii jakarta.. arhghhl.. mending ke sydney lagiiI!!! NWOOOO!!! MALASSS BANGETTTTT1!!! untung bentar doank~